PLEASE HELP ME FAST!!! I'M PANICKING, SCARED, AND REALLY WORRIED!!!?

Hi everyone, I was currently at UC Santa Barbara for a whole year, but now I need to drop out because of a variety of different reasons and grades. I also have to work a part-time job now which isn't that bad, but I also have to go to a community college and it feels degrading and I feel like an idiot and that I am stupid. Is this a normal feeling?? Please don't ask me for the reasons I need to drop out for... they are personal and I would not like to discuss them. Also my grades were a big problem too. Now I also feel like I can't show my face to my teachers and my friends and tell them that I am going to dropout :( Please guys tell me what I should do?? I am planning on transferring to a 4 year institution after I finish my 2 years at Community college but I'm still worried... When I heard the news I even began to have suicidal thoughts and I was seriously considering why my whole point was to living if I'm such a failure and whether or not I would even succeed if I go to community college. PLEASE HELP ME GUYS and PLEASE DON'T BE MEAN OR RUDE. I'm In a serious crisis right now and I need help